Not since the 18th of April have i posted. And that wasn't a real post either. I guess its time to update this blog a little. Well its not like i will change the layout or anything. But i will try to kick in some life into it hopefully. At the moment i'm sitting at a friends house and just have eaten dinner. And i get annoyed at Thomas Di Leva showing up on spotify all the time. Well not much that can be done about that. For those wondering why i am at a friends place writing this is cause the coming week is graduation week and exams are coming up the days before it. And for those who haven't been updated i now live with my mother. That means i have no apartment of my own for awhile. Well we'll see how long that will be. So i'm forced to live with my friend Jakob till Friday.

Watched Angels and Demons with Tom Hanks yesterday. Quite a good movie. Would give it 4 out of 5. Quite annoying that they have Americanized it. But then again i loved that Ewan McGregor and Stellan Skarsgård was in it. Actually didn't know they were in it until like a half an hour before the show started. And i warmly recommend the movie for anyone.

As some already know i have moved back with my mother and started my internships at Infocare that is the Nordics biggest home electronics repair workshop. That place have really put a lot on my shoulders. I'm running around with two titles. As an Network and Notebook technician. And i promise you its not the nicest work especially cause i do it for free.

More comes later. A little too tired to write at the moment.
Sleep well everyone and everyone else. ;)

One song thathave gone through my playlist alot lately is the song Shekina by Blindside. The song is in both swedish and in english and all the swedish parts in the song are translated during the song. So for those who really want to hear a good song then listen to it. Here comes the lyrics.

Vattnet svart
Som månen full
Varm nattbris viskar

Water black
As the moon is full
Warm nightbreeze whispers
I'm naked and new

I know You're always throwing kisses from the sky
Tonight I caught one
Sixteen years old
I dare to swim further out
I know You're always throwing kisses from the sky
Tonight I caught one

Som om man kunde
Vidröra lycka
Jag virar den runt mig
Som en filt

Like joy was something you could touch
I wrap it around me
Like a blanket
It's just You, me and moon

I know You're always throwing kisses from the sky
Tonight I caught one
Sixteen years old
I dare to swim further out
I know You're always throwing kisses from the sky
Tonight I caught one

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Foer those who didnt see through my latest post it was tagged with Bullshit. And that means its a joke.


Happy april's fools day!

This day today have been one of the weirdest ones I ever have experienced. Today I received a phone call from a old friend that I haven't met for months. She moved to Stockholm to study at the Royal engineering school. Last time i met her was at a party a 5 months back. Don't remember so much on what happened later on the night of the party but i know we woke up spooning eachother in my friends couch. After finding ourselfs in that couch half naked we thought nothing could had happened. Its not like i have been very intressted in her or anything over the years. On with the call. She called about that she have gotten pregnant but at the moment she didnt know fully who was the father. And she told me i could be the possible father. But it wasnt certain at this time. As of there could be one other person also that could be the father. And its her current boyfriend that she met shortly after moving there. Well either way she asked me to come visit later when the child is born so we could make genetic test on us to ensure who the father is. Hopefully its not mine or rather i wish in a way its not mine cause that would just turn my whole world upside down and hers. Well more reports about it will come later pray for me everyone.

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Long time no see. It was like more than 2 weeks ago since last time i wrote on my blogg or something. For those who is wondering what have been up and down i tell you i'll have 3 exam comming up in a few days. One on friday then the monday after then friday again. So i sit now in a marsh of study. Though i promise that after this things will start to live again on this blogg. Cause after this exam week i will not have another exam for years. Thats right i graduate. And that means i have already started to apply for works and such. Hopefully i'll get something soon. Otherwise i'm in the shit really. Cause at the moment none wants a network technician at the moment.

Thats all for the moment. Just a short update to ensure people that i'm still alive. Plus here comes a vid.

Small confession comming from me now. Last months have been utterly horrible for me the last months or actually soon maybe a year. My head is a total mess. I am overly thinking and paranoid most of the time. I get headaches like every hour though i have gotten so used to it now so i dont even take headache pills for it. Those who have been social to me knows that i have a problem with sleeping. Always oversleeps or atleast almost every time. And when i have slept i usually just feel that i havent slept enough. This is due to that almost every night i have nightmares. And it really have gotten so far that i can sleep with nightmares each and every night without needing to wake up cause i know that it isnt real. But still it makes my body very tired. Some of you have heard about the dreams i have had and some i have written here. And i tell you all that those i have told you all are the minor ones. And lately they have become more and more intensive. But its not like the same dream over and over. Each one is diffrent. I have hardly any idea why i have them. But something tells me that its due to stress. Maybe it is. Though dont want to see a psychologist due to this. Cost way too much money to go and see one. But if i am right well then i have a plan already underway. Hopefully it'll be enough to cure it in a minor way. For those who wonder what i am thinking about i tell you its not sex, even though it famously known for being good if you are stressed and needs to get away from life. But instead i'm gonna go to a local massager that i have been recommended that seem to be quite good. Hopefully a couple of massages will help to get rid of all these dreams and headaches. Though last time i expreinced a massage i got very sore for like 2 days and so was the person with me. But i guess thats due to we not being used to it.

Happy week everyone. All of yours will probably be better than mine.

Havent been many posts lately i know. Dunno what it is. Its like i'm loosing that side of me to write at this moment. Not just about the blog but the story writing me. And beside that it feels like i'm loosing something else of me. I have started to feel more lonely and less intressted into stuff i was intressted into before. All i seem to do all days now is just to make the days pass by for something. I mean what in the world is wrong with me? Why do i feel so lonely even though i have people around me? Why am i going back to my old habits? Something isnt right and i have no idea what or why. I have like the biggest of speech in my head but somehow i cant even write it down. My hand just wanna run away do something else these days. Not really wanting to write about whats going on. It always just stops for me. Giving me like small sentances that makes no sense. Argh i dont like this. All this thinking and no way to tell whats going on. Each time i try to speak out i just always stop in the beginning and somehow cant continue on. Honestly whats going on? :(

Wakey wakey! Clock is like 10 and i'm up. Up from horrible dreams again. Dreams of a war and traveling. In this dream i somehow was able to be in Sweden, Germany and Japan over a day. I crashlanded in Germany with an air plane, i traveled with train in Japan and once again its war back in Sweden. Though this time i found out whom are holding the war. Its somehwo France and Germany. Why i have no idea. Though me and my family including my somehow alive father and my parents have somehow thrown away the battle axe. And in the dream somehow there is this little girl i have seen and protected so many times. But this time i recognized her face clearly. It was in a way my very first girlfriend whom i last met like 12 years ago. Why in the world am i dreaming about her? :S

HAd something else on my head awhile sgo but it slipped so have fun. ;)